That's what the world believes, but not this lady. (Although, sometimes I feel it and have to speak truth to myself.)
I found myself telling my littlest (again) about God's best plan for us (His sovereignty) when some plans got cancelled and the disappointment kicked in. (Along with her legs and voice!!) As I spoke to her yesterday about her response, I was totally convicted about the way I handled my weekend and my own disappointments. (Boy, was I kicking and screaming inside!!)
We have plans. God does too. We have dreams and desires and God knows those too.
I found myself wanting things differently than what they were. I couldn't get my head out of the, "Why can't this be me?" So instead of a temper tantrum, I cried. I thought things. I found myself idolizing an idea and an image. This brought despair instead of joy.
Sunday morning I woke. The song on my lips and running through my head were not what I was feeling, but was truth. My sister in law had sung this for her son who graduated. It spoke to me right where I was, too.
Of course, it was my turn to be part of the praise team that morning, something that was far from my desires. I wanted to crawl back under the covers and wallow in self-pity. I decided to fight. I jumped in the shower hoping to awaken more than just my eyes and Matt Redman's song, Never Once, came on the radio.
I cried as I heard the words that spoke to my soul.
Standing on this mountaintop
Looking just how far weve come
Knowing that for every step
You were with us
Seeing just how much You've done
Knowing every victory
Was Your power in us
But with joy our hearts can say
Yes, our hearts can say
Never once did You leave us on our own
You are faithful, God, You are faithful